love sucks

love yu not love yu

2011-10-28T02:03:00.003-07:00

I go from loving to not loving
you,
From waiting to not waiting
for you
My heart moves from cold to
fire.
I love you only because it's you
the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating
you
Bend to you, and the measure
of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but
love you blindly.
Maybe January light will
consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true
calm.
In this part of the story I am
the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will
die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire
and blood.

love yu not love yu

2011-10-28T02:03:00.001-07:00

hate

2011-10-28T02:02:00.002-07:00

I hate the hate that resides in me now
I hate the hate that is so heavy it weighs me
down
I hate the hate that keeps my emotions
tightly wound
I hate the hate that charges my wall
I hate the hate that lies to strengthen my fall
I hate the hate that has me in chains
I hate the hate that courses through my
veins
I hate the hate that is a shadow at my side
I hate the hate that has stolen my mind
I hate the hate that blinds me from the stars
I hate the hate that has created my war
I hate the hate that has stolen my grace
My scarlet letter written all over my face

angel of death

2011-10-28T02:02:00.000-07:00

In darkness of the night
I spied him in a tree
Sat I froze by the sight
He was looking at me
The summer's heat became a chill
The angel of death at his kill
My heart skipped with the fright
Blinked my eyes to bet'r see
Glanced back with all my might
Parted he my comp'ny
My chest was quickly pounding still
The angel of death at his kill
I did rise and take flight
The fear made me to flee
From darkness into light
To free captivity
Unbinding my soul from his will
The angel of death at his kill
Many years since that night
Gazed I on that braz'n be
Mem'ries of still incite
Fears of my slavery
Existence of him makes me ill
The angel of death at his kill

letter o

2011-10-28T02:01:00.001-07:00

This is the letter I'll never send to you.
What's left of my heart is in this letter, and
if only it were as easy as to give you this
letter, I would. I never knew love until I
knew you. I shared with you my mind,
body, heart, and soul. We shared a feeling
so deep that simply cannot be put into
words. We shared our lives together;
through family, God, our dreams, passions,
goals in life, through love.
The love in my heart for you will never
change. I was told that time heals
everything. I've come to believe time just
makes things a little easier to deal with.
But the truth is, I still dream of you, I still
cry myself to sleep thinking of you, and I
still look up at our star wishing you were
near me. I get dressed every day only to
impress you in case we see each other. I
still look out the window hoping you will
pull into the driveway. I check the caller
ID ... just in case.
Most of all, I pray that you will accomplish
your dreams with strength and pride and
honor. I still love you and want you to have
the best of life. I just wish I was a part of it.
I never knew that someone could ever hurt
as much as I do. What scares me is I'm
sure the pain in life gets worse. I guess I
just want you by my side to ease it. You
have hurt me in countless ways, in ways
you promised you would never. In ways I
never knew you could or would ever do. It
is only worth mentioning because it hasn't
shaken my love for you. I want to believe in
forgiving and forgetting. If you would only
let me forgive you. If only you showed me
you cared.
What has hurt me more than God ever
gave warning for was the night I needed
you most.

all apologies!

2011-10-28T01:59:00.001-07:00

Dear You,
I have always respected you both but. Some where in my attitude and tongue i used made you guys to preasume my rudeness. Yes i am bad, a person ruthless, worth hatred. I made promises.i made some limitations. I made some rules but.
I still remember the way you guys used to cuddle me up. I still remember how i use to run into thy arms. How beautifully you people adored me,caress me, gaurd me,loved me but.

The reason for all but is not you people but its 'me'.
I have dissappointed you guys at every single step. I have let you guys down on everyshore of life.
You guys wanted me to be an engineer but it was me-the music, the art, the letters, the words that i wanted to play with and then when i became what i always wanted to be. You guys put the 'but'. The bitter difference in your and mine thinkin has always been like a never endin gap. I thought i could put a smile on your face but the way i think is far away and different from the way you people think.
I really am sorry!!

met yu

2011-10-28T01:58:00.003-07:00

Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued

In a trap, trip I can't grip
never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie

days of lve-initiation

2011-10-28T01:57:00.001-07:00

¶ She's got you high

and you don't even know yet ¶

¶ The sun's in the sky

It's warming up your bare legs ¶

¶ And you can't deny

you're looking for the sunset ¶

¶ She's got you high

and you don't even know yet ¶

¶ It's the search for the time

before it leaves without you ¶

¶ Have you lost your mind

or has she taken all of yours too ¶

¶ What's this about

I figured love would shine through ¶

¶ We've lost romance

This world, its turns will see you through ¶

¶ open your mind

Believe it's gonna come true ¶

¶ Keep romance alive

and hope she's gonna tell you ¶

¶ What's this about

I figured love would shine through ¶

¶ We've lost romance

This world, its turns will see you through ¶

¶ open your mind

Believe it's gonna come true ¶

¶ Keep romance alive

and hope she's gonna tell you ¶

¶ She's got you high

and you don't even know yet ¶

¶ The sun's in the sky

It makes for happy endings ¶

¶ You can't deny

you want a happy ending ¶

¶ What's this about

I figured love would shine through ¶

¶ We've lost romance

This world, its turns will see you through ¶

¶ open your mind

Believe it's gonna come true ¶

¶ Keep romance alive

and hope she's gonna tell you ¶

¶ She's got you high ¶

¶ What's this about

I figured love would shine through ¶

¶ We've lost romance

This world, its turns will see you through ¶

¶ open your mind

Believe it's gonna come true ¶

¶ Keep romance alive

and hope she's gonna tell you ¶

¶ What's this about

I figured love would shine through ¶

¶ We've lost romance

This world, its turns will see you through ¶

¶ open your mind

Believe it's gonna come true ¶

¶ Keep romance alive

and hope she's gonna tell you ¶

¶ She's got you high¶¶

juno-bas tum

2011-10-28T01:52:00.001-07:00

Kuch log bohat yaad aate hain
Jo dil mein rehte hain
Wo log jo mere apne thE
Kyun haste haste roth gaye
Tadpate hain Siskate hain
Kuch log bohat yaad aate hain
Ek roz youn he sham dhale
Bus Tanha Tanha behte the
Tab chand mujhe uljha sa laga
Dard mein mujh se aa ker kehne laga
Malom hai tumko kuch
Wo log jo mere apne the
Kyun aakhir mujhse roth gaye
Mein har shab dhondta rehta hon
Per muskil hai Tadpate hain Siskate hain
Na jany kyun yaad aate hain
Kuch log bohat yaad aate hain

2008-09-26T06:33:00.000-07:00

A hundred days have made me older

Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.

A thousand lies have made me colder

And I don't think I can look at this the same.

All the miles that seperate

Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind.

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.

The miles just keep rollin'

As the people leave their way to say hello

I've heard this life is overrated

But I hope that this gets better as we go.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind.

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go,

It gets hard but it won't take away my love.

And when the last one falls, when its all said and done.

It gets hard but it won't take away my love.

I'm here without you baby

But you're still on my lonely mind

I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time

I'm here without you baby

But you're still with me in my dreams

And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.

2008-09-03T09:17:00.000-07:00

Yeh zara zara si baat per,
Tarha tarha ka azaab kiyon?
Jo kisi say bhi khafa na ho,
Mujhey us khuda ki talash hai.
Mujhey laghzishon pay her ghari,
Koi tokta hay baar baar.
Jisay ker k dil ko dukh na ho0,
Mujhey us gunah ki talash hai,
Bina Humsafar k kab talak,
Koi musafaton main laga rahay.
Jahan koi kisi say juda na ho,
Mujhey us raah ki talash hay.
Mujhey daikh ker jo aik nazar,
Meray saray dard samajh sakay.
Jo is qadar ho Chara-e-gar,
Mujhey us nigaah ki talaash hay

Dhoop Hai Kya Aur Saaya Kya Hai Ab Malum Hua,

Ye Sab Kheal Tamasha Kya Hai Ab Malum Hua,

Hansty Phool Kaa Chehra Dekhun Aur Bhar Aayi Aankh,

Apny Saath Ye Kissa Kya Hai Ab Malum Hua,

Hum Barason Ky Baad Bhi Unko Ab Tak Bhool Na Paay,

Dil Sy Unka Rishta Kya Hai Ab Malum Hua

,Sahara Sahara Pyaasy Bhataky Saari Umar Jaly,

Baadal Ka Ek Tukra Kya Hai Ab Malum Hua..!!

2008-09-03T09:07:00.000-07:00

A million stars light

This beautiful night

This is not a night to die

Let me sing and dance

Beneath the sky

I have such love to give

I want a chance to live

Free free to find my way

Free to have my say

Free to see the day Be

like I used to be

Like a wild bird free

With all of life in me

2008-08-28T05:13:00.000-07:00

Thank you for believing in me when I found it

difficult to believe in myself...

for saying what I've needed to hear sometimes instead

of what I've wanted to hear...

for siding with me and for giving me another

side to consider.

Thank you for keeping me from taking myself--

or my problems--

too seriously--

and for not laughing at me

when I was too sensitive to laugh at myself.

Thank you for opening yourself up to me...

for trusting me with your thoughts and disappointments

and dreams...

for knowing you can depend on me

and ask for my help when you've needed it.

Thank you for putting so much thought and care

and imagination into our relationship...

for sharing so many nice times--

Thank you for always being honest with me...

being kind to me...being there for me...

Thank you for being a friend to me in so many truly meaningful ways

2008-08-28T05:06:00.000-07:00

aaj na jane kyun
kuch likh nai pa rha
uadien hain wahi
par byan na kar pa rha

har waqt sochta hun tujhe
na jane kyun khud ko rokta nai
ki hosh ka kab ahsas hoga mujhe
ya phir kahin behosh hi na rah jaun sahi

naam tera tujh se judna
phir ek aur baar sabse kahna
mushkil hai mera tujhse alag hoke rahna
kyunki is baar alag tha mera kahna

ai kash tujhe mai bata pata
marta hun jab bhi tujh se door ho jata
bhulaon to sab kuch yaad ata hai
yaad karun to yah dil ro jat hai

hai yakken mujhe aur itna pata
kyun roka tune khud ko mujhe itna bata
kya yaad na karti ho mujh ko
kya aaj bhi mere lye na marti ho???

kasie guzarti ho tum vo lamha
jab intezar hota tha mujhe dekhne ka
vo sunday ka din vo "bnr ka milna
abdulla se nikalte hi mujhe "ilu" kahna

muije bata mai ji nai paraha
chah kar bhi koi zahar pi nai pa rha
kitna mushkil hai mre le aise jina
de do mujhe maut aur kar do ek baar hi fanaa............

love sucks 2

2008-08-24T06:30:00.000-07:00

I FAIL TO FORGET U
it's difficult 2 forget ur love,
to set priorities,
when there's a choice to make,
between hrt n mind,
the hrt has emotions n love is blind,
and practically is there when
it's a questionof the mind.
I fail to forget u........
when iam sittng by the seashore,
when there is a thunder storm and
rain out doors,
when warm air touches my soul,
n whispers, "there issome one close."

love began and rusted me with rains

rains frm eyesunder deep depressed skies

feeling high in love word betrayal parted us

with enough grooves and carving grooves

held affan away,she stayed so confused..............

was asked to move on

how could a committement go wrong

it always lasts in my eyes moments we were one

moments we were on rise

shattered dreams and slayed relations

we were the one left.......with deep depressing pain

two after being as one soul blended

it began & it ended

``````````fr da one i love lyk...........

2008-08-20T06:01:00.000-07:00

ki is shkhs ki khubsoorti ko "shaaz" ne banaya

maan kar bhi sab kuch ,na jane anjaan kyun banaya

yun platna aur palat kar rukhsaar karna

na jane kyun mera amir nisha main intezar karna

wadon mai ana iradon mai ana

be-mukammal rhi so ab yaadon mai aana

wo protest ki bat vo dabbe hue jazbaat

wo pana mujhe phir orkut pe ek raat

wo umadti hawayen vo badalta mausam

wo kahna hum hi se ki lakhon mai hain ek hum

wo junoon wo pagalpan aapka kaise bhulaon

yaad aye jab bhi bas rotahi jaon

dhoka dene ki hzaron ko mili mujh ko saza ha

isari wajhen aur jazbat jaise ek "khubshboo" se qaza hai

wo badalta unka dosti ka le kar bhana

likha is affa ne ek aur fasana

faqat anson ke yah afsane hai mre

jo khola maine dil to qayamat si hogi