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This is the letter I'll never send to you.
What's left of my heart is in this letter, and
if only it were as easy as to give you this
letter, I would. I never knew love until I
knew you. I shared with you my mind,
body, heart, and soul. We shared a feeling
so deep that simply cannot be put into
words. We shared our lives together;
through family, God, our dreams, passions,
goals in life, through love.
The love in my heart for you will never
change. I was told that time heals
everything. I've come to believe time just
makes things a little easier to deal with.
But the truth is, I still dream of you, I still
cry myself to sleep thinking of you, and I
still look up at our star wishing you were
near me. I get dressed every day only to
impress you in case we see each other. I
still look out the window hoping you will
pull into the driveway. I check the caller
ID ... just in case.
Most of all, I pray that you will accomplish
your dreams with strength and pride and
honor. I still love you and want you to have
the best of life. I just wish I was a part of it.
I never knew that someone could ever hurt
as much as I do. What scares me is I'm
sure the pain in life gets worse. I guess I
just want you by my side to ease it. You
have hurt me in countless ways, in ways
you promised you would never. In ways I
never knew you could or would ever do. It
is only worth mentioning because it hasn't
shaken my love for you. I want to believe in
forgiving and forgetting. If you would only
let me forgive you. If only you showed me
you cared.
What has hurt me more than God ever
gave warning for was the night I needed
you most.