love yu not love yu

I go from loving to not loving
you,
From waiting to not waiting
for you
My heart moves from cold to
fire.
I love you only because it's you
the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating
you
Bend to you, and the measure
of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but
love you blindly.
Maybe January light will
consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true
calm.
In this part of the story I am
the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will
die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire
and blood.

love yu not love yu

I go from loving to not loving
you,
From waiting to not waiting
for you
My heart moves from cold to
fire.
I love you only because it's you
the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating
you
Bend to you, and the measure
of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but
love you blindly.
Maybe January light will
consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true
calm.
In this part of the story I am
the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will
die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire
and blood.

hate

I hate the hate that resides in me now
I hate the hate that is so heavy it weighs me
down
I hate the hate that keeps my emotions
tightly wound
I hate the hate that charges my wall
I hate the hate that lies to strengthen my fall
I hate the hate that has me in chains
I hate the hate that courses through my
veins
I hate the hate that is a shadow at my side
I hate the hate that has stolen my mind
I hate the hate that blinds me from the stars
I hate the hate that has created my war
I hate the hate that has stolen my grace
My scarlet letter written all over my face

angel of death

In darkness of the night
I spied him in a tree
Sat I froze by the sight
He was looking at me
The summer's heat became a chill
The angel of death at his kill
My heart skipped with the fright
Blinked my eyes to bet'r see
Glanced back with all my might
Parted he my comp'ny
My chest was quickly pounding still
The angel of death at his kill
I did rise and take flight
The fear made me to flee
From darkness into light
To free captivity
Unbinding my soul from his will
The angel of death at his kill
Many years since that night
Gazed I on that braz'n be
Mem'ries of still incite
Fears of my slavery
Existence of him makes me ill
The angel of death at his kill

letter o

This is the letter I'll never send to you.
What's left of my heart is in this letter, and
if only it were as easy as to give you this
letter, I would. I never knew love until I
knew you. I shared with you my mind,
body, heart, and soul. We shared a feeling
so deep that simply cannot be put into
words. We shared our lives together;
through family, God, our dreams, passions,
goals in life, through love.
The love in my heart for you will never
change. I was told that time heals
everything. I've come to believe time just
makes things a little easier to deal with.
But the truth is, I still dream of you, I still
cry myself to sleep thinking of you, and I
still look up at our star wishing you were
near me. I get dressed every day only to
impress you in case we see each other. I
still look out the window hoping you will
pull into the driveway. I check the caller
ID ... just in case.
Most of all, I pray that you will accomplish
your dreams with strength and pride and
honor. I still love you and want you to have
the best of life. I just wish I was a part of it.
I never knew that someone could ever hurt
as much as I do. What scares me is I'm
sure the pain in life gets worse. I guess I
just want you by my side to ease it. You
have hurt me in countless ways, in ways
you promised you would never. In ways I
never knew you could or would ever do. It
is only worth mentioning because it hasn't
shaken my love for you. I want to believe in
forgiving and forgetting. If you would only
let me forgive you. If only you showed me
you cared.
What has hurt me more than God ever
gave warning for was the night I needed
you most.

all apologies!

Dear You,
I have always respected you both but. Some where in my attitude and tongue i used made you guys to preasume my rudeness. Yes i am bad, a person ruthless, worth hatred. I made promises.i made some limitations. I made some rules but.
I still remember the way you guys used to cuddle me up. I still remember how i use to run into thy arms. How beautifully you people adored me,caress me, gaurd me,loved me but.

The reason for all but is not you people but its 'me'.
I have dissappointed you guys at every single step. I have let you guys down on everyshore of life.
You guys wanted me to be an engineer but it was me-the music, the art, the letters, the words that i wanted to play with and then when i became what i always wanted to be. You guys put the 'but'. The bitter difference in your and mine thinkin has always been like a never endin gap. I thought i could put a smile on your face but the way i think is far away and different from the way you people think.
I really am sorry!!

met yu

Met a girl, thought she was grand
fell in love, found out first hand
went well for a week or two
then it all came unglued

In a trap, trip I can't grip
never thought I'd be the one who'd slip
then I started to realize
I was living one big lie